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i had a bad dream.

every one was getting TER of 95 and above except me...

=(

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 8:39 PM 0 Comments

hi hi i'm back to the blog sphere once again. =)

today is the day i officially finish Self Abuse Matriculation. i never thought it really meant that way but after 8 months of struggling, i think it makes sense. i used to think TER (tertiary entrance rank) of 90 is not that hard to get and i blamed the lady who works in the Inti's office located at the X floor of City Square. she showed me samples of results. few students got 1 or 2 B for certain subjects and they still got a TER of 85 and above. so i thought, they might not be that good. i can probably get all A's. =.=

if SAM was the second easiest pre-u program in the whole world, i can't imagine doing A level or STPM. maybe, just maybe... 8 months is really way too fast.i guess i underestimated everything in inti. you don't have to go clubbing, stay around subang area to have all sorts of distractions that will make you lose the will and motivation to study. in the jungles of nilai, inti has its own sort of entertainment and distractions.

to be frank, i chose SAM because i want to take shortcut and it is easier compared to A level. even now that my public exam is officially over about 1 hour ago, i still wonder if i chose the correct path.
another piece of bad news. monash's tuition fee increase again. i want to go monash but how to go when it is so expensive?! if i were to continue in inti, i would have save at least 80k, which is enough to buy a Toyota Vios. however, my heart is telling me that inti is not the right one for me. I AM YOU or MONASH?? =( or Inti....

well, will just have a short update for now. will blog soon because i have so much to share and to rant about.
life still goes on. so, mid valley for movie tomorrow! it's been so long.......

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 3:44 PM 0 Comments

memories in jungle (Inti)....

pictures taken during presentations

memories in lab

photosessions

photoshoot. bausch and lomb came to my college to have a roadshow. so, who ever bought their promotion package for RM 35 is entitled to go for the photoshoot. it was quite embarassing because it was in an open area where there were a lot of passerby. i went for it during non-peak hour, where students are attending classes. the picture wasn't very satisfying as my eye bags are huge! >.<

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 1:19 PM 0 Comments

i'm so upset now. i went to the dental clinic as i've mentioned in the previous post. the problem with my tooth didn't seem to be as simple as i thought. i thought i just have to fill the hole of my tooth and after that i will have no more worries. i never knew it would require as a complicated procedure in order the fix that tooth. not really that complicated but my tooth is in danger!!! i only have 2 options, as the dentist told me.

1. extract it.. and there will be one big space which gives me difficulties in chewing food. the problematic tooth is in the lower molar, at the back some more!

2. undergo root canal treatment. i didn't know what kind of treatment was that when the dentist told me in the clinic. i was shocked to hear that such treatment can cost more than RM 500. for that one tooth, it's not worth the money at all! besides, it requires a few trips of treatment and i don't have the time for it when i'm here in inti. i 'm having my trial in two weeks time and my public exam day is approaching. at that moment i can't imagine i have to spend so much of money on this tooth and keep coming to the clinic once a week to do the treatment. i couldn't think properly. i didn't want to do it. i don't want to lose my tooth though. i don't want to extract it and leave the space as it is, or extract it then opt for other procedure to replace the lost tooth which would be more costly than the root canal treatment.

i regret for not taking good care of my teeth when i was a child. i also never knew that one tooth could be so significant in its own way. well, at the end of the day i didn't agree with the treatment. i will do it when i go back home in december as i don't quite like the feeling of having my tooth being treated far away from home and to pay the money myself. money is so important when you are far away from home.
so, i had my tooth filled temporarily. i hope nothing bad will happen before my exam finishes and before i get back home after the completion of my course.

***here are something scary i found on the net just now. i was curious so i searched to find out more about the treatment.

A root canal is a treatment used to repair and save a tooth that is badly decayed or becomes infected. During a root canal procedure, the nerve and pulp are removed and the inside of the tooth is cleaned and sealed. Without treatment, the tissue surrounding the tooth will become infected and abscesses may form.











an infection in the root canal of a tooth can cause:

• Swelling that may spread to other areas of the face, neck, or head
• Bone loss around the tip of the root (that tooth of mine is a bit shaky now)
  
• Drainage problems extending outward from the root. A hole can occur through the side of the tooth with drainage into the gums or through the cheek with drainage into the skin.

signs to look for include:

• Severe toothache pain upon chewing or application of pressure (i wanted to lie. but yes, this is what i experienced T.T)
  
• Prolonged sensitivity/pain to heat or cold temperatures (yeap. a bit)
  
• Discoloration (a darkening) of the tooth (N/A)
  
• Swelling and tenderness in the nearby gums (yes)
  
• A persistent or recurring pimple on the gums (N/A)

(words in bold are symptoms that i experienced for the past 3 days, at least not for now.)

What Happens During the Procedure?

-A root canal requires one or more office visits.
-first step in the procedure is to take an X-ray to see the shape of the root canals and determine if there are any signs of infection in a surrounding bone. anesthesia to numb the area near the tooth
-An access hole will then be drilled into the tooth
-Once the tooth is thoroughly cleaned, it is sealed.
-next appointment, to fill the interior of the tooth
-final step, a crown, crown and post or other restoration often needs to be placed on the tooth to protect it, prevent it from breaking and restore it to full function.

Root canal procedures have the reputation of being painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so scary... T.T
The cost varies depending on how severe the problem is and the tooth affected. range from $350 to $540 for an incisor and $520 to $800 for a molar. gosh, i so don't willing to spend so much of money on one tooth but do i actually have a choice?!

The only alternative to a root canal procedure is having the tooth extracted and replaced with a bridge, implant, or removable partial denture to restore chewing function and prevent adjacent teeth from shifting. These alternatives not only are more expensive than a root canal procedure but require more treatment time and additional procedures to adjacent teeth and supporting tissues. (you see, that left me no choice but have to undergo that treatment no matter what , when i get back to JB of course.)

"My dentist told me that in order to save my lower molar, it had to undergo through the process of root canal. Though I didn’t have any idea of what I was all about I agreed. I was really desperate in saving my molar that I went for it for 4 thousand pesos."

"I just had my first root canal done today on a molar (#15) and I am in a lot of pain, the procedure was not that bad compare to the pain afterwards. paying almost $2,000 for a procedure that it is both painful and long. "

sigh.

resource: http://www.medicinenet.com/root_canal/page3.htm

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 11:49 PM 0 Comments

i'm so sorry for the lack of updates of my life. you probably wouldn't want to know either. it has been so long since i last visited my blog though. and now i don't know what the heck has happened to my blog skin so i had to remove the old one and replace with this new look. i will get a new skin ASAP IF i have the mood and the time to blog. i've been such an lazy bum. don't think that just because i didn't blog so often, it means i've been choking on books. no okay.. no!
i'm blogging here just to let those of you who are concern enough to read my blog that i've got little problem with my tooth here. i am going to the dentist later. T.T well, it's just in 5minutes time. my friend will be fetching me to the dentist. gosh when was the last time that i've ever step my foot in a dental clinic again... will let you all know about the cause and details when i get back (if anyone knows that i actually posted a new post).
wish me luck! =(

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 11:51 AM 0 Comments

hola i'm back. there must be a reason since i'm back here to blog. i'm not exactly that free to blog about my life here. i don't know, i kind of messed up every tests that i sat for. i didn't seem to do as well as i expected myself to do and also, compared to my friends, i'm slacking behind and also not as hardworking as them. sigh... it's already august now. next week is final exam for the semester and then 2nd november it's the public exam. i'm not prepared. ='(
i feel that i've achieve nothing since i came here. i don't engross in all the night life or freedom i have here. or getting involve in a relationship like most people do when they go to college. in fact, i stay in my room most of the time now--- watch all the movies and series i can. that's a huge distraction. that's why, i ended up studying one day before tests and don't even have the time to blog. =.=

my sucky room mate bought a speaker on saturday. well, she's using a vaio laptop. the sound system should be not bad and i don't see the point that she needs a speaker. oh gosh, help me..... why can't she be more normal?! this time, if she cross the border, don't scold me for being mean. i need to motivate myself to study hard already! she better not be another source of distraction to me.

oh ya, a staff working in the library got infected by the h1n1 virus. however, inti won't be closing down as exam is due next week and it cannot be postponed. last week i was so scared that i got infected too. you know, once you have flu-like symptoms.. i went to the doctor and this stuck in front of the clinic.
LOL...

okay it's time to go back to the books.
tata! i'll be back in jb on the 14th.

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 5:32 PM 0 Comments

oh no!! i didn't realise that it's has been a month since i blogged. i told myself to blog more often but see what happened... haha. well, i was not exactly that busy. i spent most of my time playing facebook games. =.= i know. you will give me such a look. too stressed out sometimes, you know. 4months till my public exam. just like sitting for spm again. i'm not prepared and i don't know how not to flunk my maths and chemistry tests. calculus = sucks.
so far, no failure in any subjects yet-since kindergarten. =)
life plan??? long long way to go. at times i ask myself, did i choose the wrong path? is it what i really want? ='(

life in inti is still ok.
advantages: freedom, no curfew, free to socialise, online almost 24/7, sleep over, dc++ the best tool ever to download movies to pass time

disadvantages: weight gain- college students feel hungry easily, financial crisis early of the month because i go shopping at mid valley, sucky room mate, room too cold, lack of beauty sleep, lack of nutritious food and fruits, dad calls every night, do laundry myself- accumulate for two weeks in the end not enough hanger to hang clothes and clothes become smelly, miss jb food, miss my friends, become more materialistic as mid valley is the nearest place to go


gelato fruity ice cream!! only 6.80. better and cheaper than baskin robbins
so many receipts in just a day. there are few more actually, i threw them away... have to eat grass next week, in debt!

mid valley- two shopaholic. (ee fuan and me)

me and mei ping -the two committees for the boring emcee training event of STACT club.
orientation night. durex is in the goodies bags!! and i've got four. haha... advantage of being the committee, take whatever you want from the goodies bags. *ps, 4th july is the date for inti ball. it's held at the legend hotel. x date, x sponsor, x go...
met up with cal when i went home for the weekend
in bio lab, was doing enzyme activity experiment

ok, that's about it.
I MUST BE VERY SERIOUS IN STUDIES!!! i told myself to be a nerd during pre-U year 4months back then.
my face getting rounder and rounder =(

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 11:41 PM 0 Comments

"can you please stop whatever that you are doing every morning?"

*scratch my head...*

"huh?"

"can you stop sneezing? i need to sleep!"

=.=

so you think i will give in to you every time and i'm such a good target to be bullied?!
wait till i explode someday
and you will know

hello! what time is your class and what time is mine. it's freaking cold with the air con on and i have to wash up using cold water every morning and you don't even let me off the damn air con for awhile. i hate morning mostly because of you. not because the class starts at 8am. i try not to allow myself to let the alarm to ring for more than 30seconds every single day, i can't turn off the air con even for a minute- at least after i've wash up, i can't skype with my friends too often because most of the time very high possibility of me complaining about you, you love to listen to the same 5 songs over and over again-till i can somehow memorise your indon songs, you stuck to the laptop screen msn-ing, facebook-ing till late at night sometimes, you sleep early when i need to do some studying, you sleep late when i want to sleep early, you are messy and kind of dirty, you are rude and weird!

and you know what, she actually brings her keys into the bathroom whenever she needs to use the bathroom. she puts her keys by the side of her pillow when she sleeps. what the hell! what do you think you are doing?! you think i will use your keys to open your drawers and take your stuff?! you don't even know me. it's very irritating to be your room mate. muddle-headed me always go out, forget about bringing the keys. i always leave my keys on the table.. you have plenty of chance to take my things then. my psp, money...

you have plenty of time to sleep everyday, so what so big deal about me sneezing in the morning? most people do... you too. just that i won't be awaken so easily even though i hear you sneezing. i'm too tired to bother about that. since you are THAT tired, by right you will fall asleep soon after i stop sneezing. come on, it's only like 2minutes.

what's the point of staying together with no normal conversation?! i think the longest time we ever chat was only about 20 minutes. i can't be bombarding so many questions to you and waiting for you to answer me only and you do not make any effort to find some common topics to be talked about.

next semester i will try to move to another room. single occupancy this time as i prefer more privacy and no lousy room mate. many of my friends get along with their room mates so well, except me! they became friends!
-----yelia yelin is nothing in my friends list.

posted by ♪René€ ♪ @ 11:12 PM 0 Comments

1st of june...
classmate Lim Qian's 19th brithday


the guys doing 'lala' pose with birthday girl

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