christmas

everyone from all around the world celebrate christmas these days. it doesn't matter if you are not a christian and from different religion. christmas is all about the joy of giving and forgiving who can resist the temptation of taking part in such festival that just happen once in every year.

christmas this year is a lil different for me.

last Christmas i gave you my heart

and the very next day

you gave it away

this year to save me from tears

i gave it to someone special

i'm not trying to sound emo here but that was how my christmas last year or the past year were like. don't get me wrong. this year christmas i didn't give my heart to anyone but keep it to myself.the safest place ever i supposed. this christmas is quite fulfilling to me. first of all, i appreciate julia's invitation to the chirstmas eve dinner at grand straits garden. for the first time i've seen julia being so girlish and she really looked great that evening. cheers,julia!

of course we girls cam whore a little in the toilet. that's what girls do best everytime we head to the toilet isn't it? =)

if i were not wrong, i spent my christmas in melaka at my grandma's house last year. but the trip there always earn me some pocket money. lol.last year i was still mending my broken heart. it's so nice that it's healed now and i am happily living my life. so is him... no doubt.
and how did i spend christmas this year? my whole family(well, there are only 3person-me,my dad and my mum) went to the newly opened jusco at bukit indah in the afternoon. we spent half of our day trying to find parking there. it was so crowded. there are nothing much over there. it's just another typical shopping mall. i couldn't find any nice clothes for chinese new year there.

i really don't know what should i rant about next. as i said, this blog is very much abandoned nowadays.my life is dull so i have nothing to say or show the least maturity in my blog posts. an idle living an idle life that's it. an idle with no correct mind. i can't believe i said that in my blog. frankly, i feel stupid as day passes by. each day i feel that i'm losing something. not money, not friends, not my belongings but knowledge. okay, knowledge can be considered as part of my belongings too. you know what? i'm really getting stupid. i don't know how to spell simple words now. so yeah, i'm kind of struggling with abc when typing this post.lol. i was aiming to get in into any jc in singapore before this. stop looking at me now. i'm not going for the entrance test for the JCs anymore simply because i feel so lazy to study their O-level syllabus. how do i pass if i don't study or go for tuition classes. erhem, maybe i don't have the quality to be qualified either. i'm constantly thinking about my future every now and then. i already know what to do but things actually not as easy as i thought. there are a lot more complications behind it. if i were to sit at home being a lazy bum till spm result is out, then i think i would be losing sooooo much of knowledge that i knew. another point for this, i loss knowledge but gain fats. what?! i need to go to school. okay college to be more precise. where to go actually??
oh yah, i had such a scary nightmare on christmas eve day. that is definitely not something that i wished for. no one would want that to happen too. it's just too unexpected and unbelievable so i shall not say anymore word about it in case it really came true. choy!touchwood!
yesterday i dreamt that i was getting hair extension. credit to li ying because i was reading her blog yesterday before i went to bed and i really dreamt that i was going to put on blue and pink hair extension. ^^

pictures of me...

this is my first time cam whore so long after i permed my hair. i didn't like the result in the first place. i had the urge of straightening it to make it back to the old hairstyle. since I've got so many nice comments about my hair so i started to love it now. too bad the gothic look plan is ruined.

oh yeah

today is my piggy's 2nd birthday!
he's old enough to have a nice and pleasant bath already
so sad that i'm the only one remember today and wish him happy birthday.

i know i'm a lil *ab-normal.

but he's a part of my life now.

i love him because he's so fat and nice to hug.hehe

it's okay that the person is gone

i'm not lonely because i have piggy -one of my property

today's trip to suntec city was cool!!!!!

we had a chance to write our wishes on the big balloon that designated for it. me,cal,jasmynn felt we did something meaningful and extraordinary during this Singapore trip. the coolest part is, i guess they are going to put all the balloons that are filled with words and wishes up in the sky on the 31st December at the marina bay countdown party. whooo hoo. we had a blast sitting on the floor and showing off our creativity on the balloon.

~my wishes~

a special logo featuring us

me

merry Christmas in advance! i'm totally in the mood now..

it's ok not to own a PSP
it's ok not to have a vaio laptop
it's ok not to have my own digital camera
it's ok not to have big car, big house
it's ok to fail or fall once in awhile
it's just not ok if i have to give up what i've been aiming for
it's not really ok if i have to give up my childhood dream and pursue something else
will i regret some day?
what will happen if i insist of not giving up?
sometimes i feel that i am being too ambitious

what should i do?! =(

it's been a long long time since i last blogged. i think i owe my blog an apology. i kind of abandon it. it was last week that i changed my blog skin and now it's not even complete. i just feel so lazy to do anything except for shopping during my holidays. i'm sick of staying at home and finding myself glue to the tv screen or starring at the laptop screen for some anime or drama shows. i'm an lazy bum. everyday is the same old routine. i have yet to do anything meaningful for my precious holidays before i'm heading to the unknowns in world out there.
i have to say this, i'm leading an idle life right now. i do not have any motivation to do anything. i was cleaning up my room the very day after spm is over. i packed all the papers and books, prepared to sell them to the old-newspaper-man. then it's still in my room. lying there on the floor. unmoved. and my story books, they are still in a mess. the worse thing is, i even feel lazy to sleep-it happens all the time. i don't know what is wrong with me. i just don't feel like sleeping even though i'm dead tired. i love to waste time. especially at night. so i ended up sleeping very late at night with nothing much to do actually and force myself to wake up like hmm 10 or 11 am. i don't know what's with me. something is wrong with my system.
well, i guess the only 'achievement' i've got so far is my new hair style. not many of you know this but yes, i permed my hair. don't imagine and don't be too surprised. it looks absolutely normal! somehow i had the urge of perming my hair so i headed to the salon 3 days after spm is over. the only thing that i'm so hardworking in doing is taking care of my curls now... every morning i spent about 20 minutes doing my hair and about 30 minutes after i bathe. i kind of miss my straight hair. it needs less nourishment and time to handle. i had always been very lazy in combing my hair so the only bonus i get from my curly hair now is that i don't have to comb my hair that often.




my hair... before i permed it








i think this is basically what i do everyday: watch tv, listen to the radio, watch anime, online.... and, play my hair. i have three new books that i bought before spm starts in order to keep myself occupied and it's still untouched. i'm so lazy to exercise and i don't know since when i don't care about fats anymore. i told myself to read up some encyclopedia to level up my knowledge but it seems to be a difficult task.

my holiday lists :
perm hair (done)
dance
exercise
watch prison break4,gossip girls2, vampire knight guilty,nodame cantabile...
read books
buy more books
get driving licence
holiday with friends
go singapore shopping
know more things
go for camp
boost my artistic level
get a certificate in design and animation
DIY
sleep over
party
and....
the last on the list is..
camwhore!!!!
hey, it's been a long while since i take any photos of myself yea. i feel so lazy to do it now though. i rather day dream. that is what i'm capable in doing, always. having stuck at home everyday during weekdays is soooooooo boring. sometimes i even thought of calling this number, 03-26873400. why???
that is not my new boyfriend's number. it's the number to call if one wants to volunteer for the national service programme. i know... i'm crazy. volunteer for NS? nah... give me a break. oh... speaking of give-me-a-break. yi th'ng must be enjoying herself in Italy now. how good if i get to go and having italian meal everyday for one whole month!! that's such a blessing. italian food is my all time favourite. too bad, the only italian restaurant here has closed down. yi th'ng gets to go Rome!! omg, that makes me more envious. Rome.... when can i go there?!.... i guess i'm a little different. i love Rome and want to discover the art and history myself one day. i'm fascinated by it and it will always be my dream holiday vacation. that's why i think i'm a lil different. most people will consider UK, Australia, japan or Korea i supposed.
then again, i don't know what makes me blog today. maybe it's because of my guilt for not updating my blog these days when i'm so free. oh ya, i was emo-ing the whole day this morning. rather, yesterday morning. what a sunday morning. gloomy and my dad told me that he just ruined the blouse that i bought on the singapore trip with cal they all on thursday... i tought it was just a small problem and it turned out like this!!!! no matter how much Clorox just can't save my blouse. sobx
you see.... green and brown. at different places

you think it's clean. but it's not on the other side.
it was so sad. i tried it on for less than 5 minutes and it's not wearable anymore.

emo.emo.emo.

then went Hyatt for FACON education fair. the trip there made me so unsure of where to further my studies later. i so wanna study in JC before this and now i'm not sure of it anymore. i wonder if i should sit for the entrance test then wait for the result and then only i decide. future planning won't be a problem if i accepted the scholarships.

i will think about this again and make a decision within this week when i get a good nice sleep.

thinking needs energy too. in fact, a lot of energy is needed. tonight, is such a good night to have a sweet sweet dream. i shall not waste any minute typing this.

~yawn my way to wonderland~

oh!

finally, happy birthday to miss fann shar linn

~yawn my way to wonderland~